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I thought you were my one and only,
now I rather prefer to be lonely
I changed, the day u betrayed me,
its my alter ego that saved me....
ironically my part which loved you,
is cynically  hard on you ...!
now I don't really have a  heart
'coz you tore it apart,
now my turn to play the devil's part,
lets see if you got that heart.
Lately i realized, breaking hearts
is your priceless piece of art,
your endless drama; don't know from
where to start......!

You stumble with a minor load,
and here I operate, in every damn mode.
Right now I'm in rage mode,
which you might not afford.
Your mind:stiff as an iron rod,
to reshape it, let's turn on the heat mode.
Day by day seems like i'm killing myself
Thoughts of you drilling my skull, God help !!
I feel dull, try to be normal but end up null!!
feels like hell, rather emotions hard to spell
In these forms, in my mind you dwell,
like a storm, raging through body,
tearing it apart like hell !

Let me express the truth ,
It might be hard to hear, but would sound so sooth....
I don't want to be rude
you strip my thoughts nude,
fade away my conscience too..
I backed off in time,
as I was next in the queue,
screw you, better find someone new,
I have had enough of you..
I skipped my meals, lost control,
had to deal with my own downfall,
Now that would be all, if you will
excuse me, please **** off!
I'm insane: that i complain,
myself allowed you to get on my veins,
your presence turned next to suppression, choke,
                inevitable pain
to that I build up a survival instinct, and now
                I am insane
I am not just saying, Its true,
the price I'm still paying.
You seemed to be a "concentration camp"
treating me like a captured man
very few survive tragedies, guess what?
I feel lucky, I survived you....

What I meant as a compliment,
you took it as an abuse..
everything you said, sounded like an excuse
shows attitude but  talking  platitude
when found guilty; you go giving explanations
and there I stood not giving a damn, seen it once
I lost myself in our dalliance
now i can't withstand one more glance
You think I'm unaware of your past affairs
switching men like: who cares !!
piling up stack of sins like never ending layers..
You pretended to be ingénue, but your deeds in-effable
Trusted you, 'coz I'm kinda affable, screw you
Right now I'm experiencing alixithymia
so solitude seems to be the only panacea
I have showed enough of  forbearance
In the end you turned out nothing but menace
furtive nature broke through my calm
made the beast out of me
now just go away and set me free !






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