LOST & FOUND

LOST:
To my surprise, yet another problem arise.
I criticize for I respond lately. To be precise,
I have been away from myself. Need help, need a push,
An awakening within myself.

Once I was a plodder
But now just an indolent lad
Looking for a supporting shoulder.

Depression, kind of current state.
Progression null, everything at stake.

Awake with no desire or vision,
Past has nothing to inspire either.
Current habits have seized the leisure.

My condition is, I have nowhere to go
Hoping for a bright future.

Doing nothing, fading away the glow.
I walk slow, feel low
Seems like I am dying every second inside
Still brave enough to accept the reality
But the fear of future still hides.
Vision got blurred, this fact is clear !

For me, it takes too long to get along,
don't know whats wrong
I guess i'm tired of making mistakes
each time a piece of peace it takes

Feels like I'm losing touch of reality
half dead but still awake, huh seems witty
I look back now,  how I  used to be
how the hell did I survive those tough times
was I blessed with some immortal power ?
its something I can't for-see.

Must be  humbleness of cruelity
a kind treatment before a chaos
its the time to pay off
for all my deeds to balance off the partiality

For me, it takes too long to get along
don't know whats wrong
I guess i'm tired of making mistakes
each time a piece of peace it takes

FOUND:
    A transformation from within:

Life just started, I am excited
Learning to make peace with the past as it no longer lasts
It’s just in my head, time to move ahead.

I better lighten up my head to enlighten my mind,
By letting go off the things I once said.

I didn’t stop, I just paused
Forced to find the reason of my own chaos
I trusted too much far from my imagination
On those who prattled, letting them to be my boss.

I Forgot I have my own thoughts,

Now to hell with those
Who beneath the cause,
Tried to certain my loss,
would  probably die out of remorse.